today

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i haven't done anything for at least a week. i've been basically completely useless and i don't think i'm going to be doing anything productive for a while. i might draw, but that's it. i haven't been drawing as much. i've basically only been on my new laptop and phone doing lazy shit. dad told me i have to have my school caught up and my room clean for us to get a dog. which confused me and made me upset yesterday, why do i need to have my grades up for a dog? he said for responsibility or something. which doesn't make sense to me. it'd make more sense if he had me do dog related things to show i'm responsible for a DOG. it's frustrating, everything is about my school.. i hate school and i hate people only talking about my school. it doesn't even matter. i  hate it so much because it's so pointless (not that anything really has a point but, i hate things that are EXCEPTIONALLY stupid) i hate it here honestly. i had suicidal thoughts today. i almost told my friend about it but i don't want to panic them. only rational thought i've had today.  this is turning into a ramble, so i'll stop for now. i'm gonna go on the tv and be a worthless piece of shit some more

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