[do you hear their song?]

i forgot to write in february, i guess that's okay tho.

i keep getting very tired after 8pm, i really hate it because i need to shower and brush my teeth at night and feed my cats but i always fucking forget. i'm going to shower soon.

akljdfklsdfakljsafd have a choir concert on thursday, getting my hair dyed tomorrow because it's faded already. hoping nothing fucks with that because it looks bad. i need my blankets washed they smell kinda gross, and my room is gross ugh.

sooo i've been hanging out with S and her friends more, who are pretty nice and i have fun with. and there's this guy called TE who has a crush on me, which is weird to me. i don't understand why people that i barely know admit to liking me when they just met me. am i attractive? i don't think i am. i don't know why this keeps happening, and it's always people i'm not interested in. at least recently there's been 2 people to actually ask me out. i don't want to seem vain, but i just don't want to date these guys. TE is pretty good i suppose, but he's just not my type: he tends to smell bad, he's very loud, and he acts kind of awkward and impulsive. i don't like any of that, and that's okay, but i feel like i'm doing something wrong by not dating him. i feel like an asshole but i'm not going to make myself uncomfortable for someone else's sake.

i'm listening to a lot of the magnus archives, it's really good :) i love the story.