[i'm gonna do this real quietly cuz i think you're sleeping]

 i had dca yesterday morning and state assessments this morning. dca sort of ruined my entire day. and then i had to work and my manager was really really annoying. she makes me want to quit. we got an average score at dca, and it made me feel very upset, i don't know why i guess it hurt my pride really bad. i just don't feel good at all. just go to school and barely do any work, go to my job, get home and stay up until i pass out. i fucking hate my life, i hate myself, i want to do so many things but i'm so useless i can't achieve anything. i have basically no friends and i don't think anyone likes me because i'm so whiny and obnoxious. there's just something fundamentally wrong with me, but i don't know what it is so i can't fix it.

i'm having a picnic on sunday. i hope people can make it.