[OUR OMOOOORI BOOOOOY]

 had a really bad argument with my dad yesterday. it was like 40 mins long. it was about my brother, because i said some strong words to him. i don't regret anything, but my dad was furious because i refused to apologize. i will never feel sorry, because i wasn't wrong. i had a long conversation with J after that. he made me feel a lot better; he always does. he's wonderful, i wish i could see him everyday and not just talk in vc.
 i hate living in reality. it's horrible. i'm sick of everything horrible but there's no way to escape. everyone is upset all the time because bad things are happening all the time. i'm tired of it.
 it's been hard to breathe lately. and i started coughing again tonight. i'm not sure if those are related, but the coughing has become a little normal. it doesn't happen all the time, i just think when the weather changes i get coughs and they're terrible. i hope i'm okay, i'll see a doctor if it gets serious. everything is scary.
 summer school has made me exhausted. i'm so slow at work i feel like passing out. ughghhh i wish my room was COLD. i wish i lived in my world. just like OMORI OMGGGG
 i saw my new therapist today. i didn't really like her, she was kind of direct, and didn't seem to understand me very well. my old therapist was okay but i haven't met a therapist i actually liked yet, they all feel the same. my therapy is my journal.
 i need to buy a journal.