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sometimes you just have to ride through the feelings and you'll probably make it out. not the same, but different. sometimes different works.
my computer hasn't been bluescreening, so i think it's because i've been letting my computer shut off at night. i really should take better care of my things.
oh yeah. my hyperfixation on my teacher was waned. maybe it's because i didn't go to school yesterday. i still love talking to him, but now i'm not like. delusional (misuse of that word i know). like seriously i don't know what was WRONG with me! for days!! if that shit happens again.... i don't know. whatever. whole week has been weird as shit. maybe it's some astrology bullshit. i don't fucking know, but i've been super weird lately.
i got a haircut and it's actually pretty nice. i feel better! confident, i think. i was also going to give blood today because they were hosting the blood drive at my school, but my hemoglobin was too low.... hm. i guess i need to raise my iron levels. hopefully i'm not anemic? i don't feel anemic.
okay well instead of crushing on my teacher (yeah i realized it wasn't platonic surprise surprise) i think i like my friend..... I. pretty sure i haven't named anyone I??? if i have then whatever. no one reads this shit anyway! i just wanna be extra careful i'm not doxxing myself too fucking hard. but yeah. I is really cute, and genuinely like the funniest person i know. funnier than J (sorry J ur still my bestie). i think it's a leo thing. i want to know him better. we've had the same class since august but we haven't hung out outside of school. also problem: R likes I, so i definitely can't make any moves unless they don't date or have a breakup or something. i'm not an asshole. even if i'm not super close to R, i still know her feelings towards him. i should at least let her shoot her damn shot!!! anyway, if they end up in a long relationship, i think i'll live. it's not like my feelings are consistent EVER.... APPARENTLY... jesus christ. i make myself so mad. i mean i probably wouldnt make moves anytime soon no matter what lmao.
i've had a lot of heartburn and it doesn't help i had taco bell for dinner. i'm probably gonna throw up tonight. choir practice was chill.
okay.............gonna try sleeping now. sleep has been weird for me. it's not friday yet but i'm just gonna label this as friday bc WHATEVER
my computer hasn't been bluescreening, so i think it's because i've been letting my computer shut off at night. i really should take better care of my things.
oh yeah. my hyperfixation on my teacher was waned. maybe it's because i didn't go to school yesterday. i still love talking to him, but now i'm not like. delusional (misuse of that word i know). like seriously i don't know what was WRONG with me! for days!! if that shit happens again.... i don't know. whatever. whole week has been weird as shit. maybe it's some astrology bullshit. i don't fucking know, but i've been super weird lately.
i got a haircut and it's actually pretty nice. i feel better! confident, i think. i was also going to give blood today because they were hosting the blood drive at my school, but my hemoglobin was too low.... hm. i guess i need to raise my iron levels. hopefully i'm not anemic? i don't feel anemic.
okay well instead of crushing on my teacher (yeah i realized it wasn't platonic surprise surprise) i think i like my friend..... I. pretty sure i haven't named anyone I??? if i have then whatever. no one reads this shit anyway! i just wanna be extra careful i'm not doxxing myself too fucking hard. but yeah. I is really cute, and genuinely like the funniest person i know. funnier than J (sorry J ur still my bestie). i think it's a leo thing. i want to know him better. we've had the same class since august but we haven't hung out outside of school. also problem: R likes I, so i definitely can't make any moves unless they don't date or have a breakup or something. i'm not an asshole. even if i'm not super close to R, i still know her feelings towards him. i should at least let her shoot her damn shot!!! anyway, if they end up in a long relationship, i think i'll live. it's not like my feelings are consistent EVER.... APPARENTLY... jesus christ. i make myself so mad. i mean i probably wouldnt make moves anytime soon no matter what lmao.
i've had a lot of heartburn and it doesn't help i had taco bell for dinner. i'm probably gonna throw up tonight. choir practice was chill.
okay.............gonna try sleeping now. sleep has been weird for me. it's not friday yet but i'm just gonna label this as friday bc WHATEVER
