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i don't know why i keep trying to convince myself that i don't want to be a choir teacher.
i keep looking at different options, careers, thinking about something else. a different way, a way around or out. i don't know why i keep doing this. i don't even realize that it's what i'm doing. i love choir, i want to be a teacher, i want to teach choir, i feel happy imagining being one. and yet.
i'm going to do it, and you can't stop me, ME. fuck you, idiot.
been playing a lot of forsaken. roblox on my mind all the time. tumblr is potentially being taken down, hope that doesn't happen, i like my tumblr and have many dear things there. i'm exporting it currently. i think it's still exporting. i need to stop smoking so much weed. it's a problem. i promise i won't tomorrow. PROMISE! it seriously messes with my memory. i barely feel like i'm living in the real world, sometimes it's like i'm just going through the motions. now that i think about it, it's probably because it's almost 5 am and i'm getting a little craaazy. so maybe scratch that. i do have those problems kind of.
been reading happy sugar life, it's honestly kind of bad but i like it, it has a special place in me. sometimes i just want to read something that isn't very good and has problematic elements. sometimes it's fun. also reading berserk, it's not really my style but it's really well-known so i wanted to read it. i gotta clean my room before ants find my shit AhargahGRHGJhHGHHhHHH
hooonk shoooo hooonk shooo
i keep looking at different options, careers, thinking about something else. a different way, a way around or out. i don't know why i keep doing this. i don't even realize that it's what i'm doing. i love choir, i want to be a teacher, i want to teach choir, i feel happy imagining being one. and yet.
i'm going to do it, and you can't stop me, ME. fuck you, idiot.
been playing a lot of forsaken. roblox on my mind all the time. tumblr is potentially being taken down, hope that doesn't happen, i like my tumblr and have many dear things there. i'm exporting it currently. i think it's still exporting. i need to stop smoking so much weed. it's a problem. i promise i won't tomorrow. PROMISE! it seriously messes with my memory. i barely feel like i'm living in the real world, sometimes it's like i'm just going through the motions. now that i think about it, it's probably because it's almost 5 am and i'm getting a little craaazy. so maybe scratch that. i do have those problems kind of.
been reading happy sugar life, it's honestly kind of bad but i like it, it has a special place in me. sometimes i just want to read something that isn't very good and has problematic elements. sometimes it's fun. also reading berserk, it's not really my style but it's really well-known so i wanted to read it. i gotta clean my room before ants find my shit AhargahGRHGJhHGHHhHHH
hooonk shoooo hooonk shooo
