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my hands are so fucked up because of the weather, it's so shit outside i miss fall. i may be a winter child but i don't like the cold THAT much damn. it's kinda nice being back to school, even if it makes me more tired.
i need to shower today, i hate not showering, i especially need to since i went to the pool today in gym. i was the only one who swam it was weird. it made me soooo tired and i felt super sick but i felt better after eating lunch.
most of my classes have been okay so far. we did a drawing game in english which i also did in biology yesterday. i wanted to talk to mr. F about my schedule but i didn't see him today :/
hopefully get to see encanto tomorrow. i already saw it a couple days ago but i want to see it again in theaters because it's cool.
i keep forgetting to post here and even tho i'm not suppose o today i will because i forget to follow my schedule every fucking day
okay it is the next day. last night we had a thanksgiving dinner (totally not thanksgiving) i wish i ate more food :I
i rambled a lot to NI and GU even though they probably didn't care very much. overall it wasn't too bad.
today is black friday and i'm going to get splatoon 2. i've spent the last 2-3 hours playing animal crossing and i'm gonna play tf2 soon. i'll have to wait until like 3 pm to get the game because that's when my mom is off of work (she now works the day shift at wendy's bc she quit her old job). i hope we can have olive garden for dinner.
i'm really hungry lol. i want the sanders sides calendar.
soo my cities water pipes have broken apparently!! i guess!!! and we're on a water boil. and school was cancelled because of it. hm
yeah so i've just been on my computer all day. i'm a little afraid to shower even though it's probably safe, you just can't drink it. can't brush my teeth. my back kind of hurts lol
i've been writing all day but i haven't made a whooole lot of progress, i'm hoping to tomorrow. i'm very excited to show my friends, i'm mostly worried i won't tell the story correctly. i've never written a story and it's hard to avoid plot holes and such, i tend to overlook those. i still want to show them it very much so i hope i can finish it this weekend.
i love my friends very much, they make everything so much better.
i mostly struggle with metaphors and creative writing, idk i tend to be a little too direct. i try not to and i try spicing it up but i wish i was better at it. i struggle with similes and all that.
i wish i could give my friends big hugs.
i felt bad like a week ago due to some stupid thing. it ruined my whole day that day and i cut myself twice. it sucks. i basically broke down to 2 of my friends and i felt bad for dropping it on one of them. i just want people to like me all the time and never stop loving me i feel like i'll die otherwise, i need so much attention sometimes. i just need my friends to love me is all.
snowgrave route made me fucking cry when berdly died, it fucked me up i don't care if people hate him, he is so funny and stupid and annoying and i love him, he is my dumb dead gay son. toby's done it again.... i don't even think the genocide route made me cry like that, i mean it's also very sad but snowgrave, despite being much shorter and easier to accomplish, is devastating.
okay gonna try sleeping i'm very tired. it's only 9 pm but i've been awake since like 5
i've had icp lyrics in my head for a few days lmao.
today was an activity schedule so i had academy time at the end of the day, which means my mom parked on the wrong side of the building since it was odd and my last class was on that side lol.
i'm on my perioooood which sucks ass but it's fine, it's friday and i feel better (need to take a shower). i skipped on thursday bc i felt like shit, which i sort of regret but also don't. my grades are pretty great aside from geometry, i haven't been doing as much work either which i need to catch up on :/// i hate my stupid brain.
i've been writing a story and putting a lot of effort into it, it's already almost 2k words! i can't wait to finish it.
i'm on the toilet right now, my coochie stinks eww 🤢 i need to SHOWER. period blood always makes it worse. i haven't shaved in forever because i need a new razor. i've been sweaty all day even though it isn't hot.
homecoming is tomorrow which is cool, i've never been to homecoming and i don't plan on doing much other than sitting on my 3ds. i hope there's food... it better be worth it i payed $5 for the ticket.
choir is great! i love my class but hate all of the people because they don't try at all. we did a breathing practice with straws, i got saliva on the floor so ew. mr. F said he sees how much i'm trying and asked if i wanted to be in some choir thing (i don't remember what it was called) so that was nice.
i like almost all of my teachers honestly. mr. T is the coolest teacher and makes history a class i look forward to. mr. S is super chill and nice and sometimes talks to be at the start of class since i'm usually the first one there. ms. M is a great teacher although she's really strict (but i don't think that's a bad thing). mr. W is also a great teacher but i don't like him in geometry. mr. F is a great teacher and is nice and funny. mr. WI is cool and mostly chill but is strict sometimes when the kids get obnoxious, and a great teacher. my other 2 teachers mr. ME (i don't remember how to spell his name) he's cool but i feel like he makes us do too much stuff at the start of class and it wears me out very quickly, and ms. B is just whatever, i think she can be a little mean sometimes and her class is kind of boring tbh.
that was long. i need to wipe so i'm gonna cut off now. happy 1st of october!
cut myself again yesterday. started summer school yesterday, it's super tiring but i met someone in english who's pretty cool. we could probably become better friends idk. english is pretty good, math is fucking painful, lunch is alright. i just want to sleep all the time now that i have to sit at school for 9 hours with a bunch of kids i don't like too much.
i cut myself because i had an argument with my dad and he was being pretty mean (he apologized later at least), this is the second time recently i've cut myself, i did it on my left thigh this time. it's wasn't too bad but i did more than before. it probably will barely scar, barely broke the skin. i need a box cutter or something, my knife is fucking useless.
my fingers are hurting from typing god fucking damn my body is useless. my left foot started hurting yesterday i hope that doesn't turn into a huge thing. i'm tired. i'm gonna play left 4 dead to chill. i love mother mother <3
i've been playing a bunch of left 4 dead 2 :> i'm probably getting better but i'm not the best with aim, and sometimes i play for too long and make my arm go numb >_> brain go brrrrrr
i joined a vocaloid server and now i'm thinking about vocaloid :P i really like utauloid probably more than vocaloid lol
i really want to make a modded minecraft server but i'm not sure how yet ehhh and i'm lazy. i just added a bunch of dumb mods to l4d2 :3 i need to post this already it's just been sitting here for like 2 hours
