[You used ONE POUND of beeswax???]

we drove around today. while my dad was telling my mom to stop, he accidentally called me a cunt. he was trying to call my mom a cunt, but accidentally pluralized it. i said "what did you call me?" and he doubled down.

i didn't look up or make a sound, barely moving my fingers to play a game on my phone. tears non-stop pouring, snot leaking and getting all over my jacket when i tried to wipe it off, face blotchy. they finally noticed i wasn't responding and tried talking to me for a while before my dad stopped in a graveyard, went into the backseat to hug me and say he was sorry. he specifically said he meant it in the british way, and when he said it about me it was meant to be a joke, but when he says that to my mom it's because she is one.

i started talking after that and we smoked weed while driving. my parents at some point started nagging me about getting a job that's in walking distance, because they can't afford to drive me around i guess?? it was annoying to listen to tbh.

later we went to the grocery store but i was reaaally tired after a while, and eventually i got sick of walking and went back to the car. it was hot as fuck today mind you (okay it wasn't that bad but it was kind of humid) and after a while of sitting in the very hot car i decided to turn on the ac. i was basically drenched in sweat. at least we have a bunch of food now.

then i went to sleep when we got home. i think i woke up at some point and then went back to sleep...? i really don't remember. i woke up at like 4:30 am, and i just kind of stayed up and smoked weed ('cause that's all i do lol). i've been playing forsaken but i keep dying as guest!! i am so bad at him, and i keep fumbling at the last fucking second.

ugh i'm tired, but i don't want to go to sleep. ohh woe is me. i think i'm going to change my icons again because i don't like some of them...