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i have a crush on someone else.......
his name starts with J but it is nawt J. i think i'll use JS to distinguish them. i can't keep up with the aliases i use.
i have had 2 dreams with JS a few days apart. the first dream was. not appropriate. and the second was more normal, except he had scratches on his face for some reason. i don't know why i started having these feelings again. a looong time ago i liked him but then they disappeared. now they're back.
what's weird about this crush is that i don't know the guy, all of my past crushes were on my friends, but i've barely talked to him outside of passing comments or jokes. i don't know what to do. i really want to be friends with him, but school will be over in a month. i'm working with one of his friends on an english project, so i want to become friends with her to hopefully become friends with him. i don't think i'm being totally bad for doing this, because i do like the girl and want to be friends with her genuinely. but also, i'm a weird obsessive person, and want to know JS really bad, before i miss my chance.
i could. hypothetically. talk to him during class. but i have social anxiety and would probably come off as weird or something so i'm not DOING THAT.
there was a solar eclipse today and my city had 80 something percent coverage. it was really cool to see~~ also my grade in government has gone from an F to a B. LET'S GOOOO. and i'm done with everything on my senior project. yippeeeeeee!
ugh
his name starts with J but it is nawt J. i think i'll use JS to distinguish them. i can't keep up with the aliases i use.
i have had 2 dreams with JS a few days apart. the first dream was. not appropriate. and the second was more normal, except he had scratches on his face for some reason. i don't know why i started having these feelings again. a looong time ago i liked him but then they disappeared. now they're back.
what's weird about this crush is that i don't know the guy, all of my past crushes were on my friends, but i've barely talked to him outside of passing comments or jokes. i don't know what to do. i really want to be friends with him, but school will be over in a month. i'm working with one of his friends on an english project, so i want to become friends with her to hopefully become friends with him. i don't think i'm being totally bad for doing this, because i do like the girl and want to be friends with her genuinely. but also, i'm a weird obsessive person, and want to know JS really bad, before i miss my chance.
i could. hypothetically. talk to him during class. but i have social anxiety and would probably come off as weird or something so i'm not DOING THAT.
there was a solar eclipse today and my city had 80 something percent coverage. it was really cool to see~~ also my grade in government has gone from an F to a B. LET'S GOOOO. and i'm done with everything on my senior project. yippeeeeeee!
ugh
