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i'm at the library right now. i'm so tired and cold. i'm warming up right now but. it sucks. i'm here to work. i'm going to soon. just wanted to vent about it.
i was gonna tell my mom i wanted to skip school to work on my assignments fully. but when i walked by inside to tell her i accidentally bumped my little brother with the door. he was fine, but my mom immediately got upset at me because she saw his foot go under the door (he was perfectly fine and only cried a little because my mom was yelling) and then i got mad at her for being so harsh with me, and then she got mad at me and said that i was the one who got upset first (i didn't, when i realized i hit my brother i was calm to make sure he didn't get upset, and AGAIN he was okay). we argued in the car and it fucking sucked.
so i didn't get to tell her i didn't want to go to school, so instead i just fucked off and walked to the library myself since it was like a 15 minute walk. problem is that it was a little rainy and way colder than i thought. i stopped by a cafe for about 2 hours because i was tired of walking (also google maps made me walk the wrong way for 5 minutes so i was even colder and more tired than before). once i got some food and drinks (had to have my parents cashapp me, they still don't know i'm not at school, actually no one has called me even though they should have been notified that i was absent) i filled myself up and went back out to go to the library now that it was open. it was only a 5 minute walk but it became WAY more windy and cold, and there was a slight sprinkle. so when i got to the library i was very cold and tired. i feel so shitty and i STILL have to work even tho i just wanna sleep. i still have the hot chocolate i bought (unfortunately it cooled down significantly) but yeah. that's been my fucking morning. i really wanna blow my brains out.
i'm also trying to write a short story but idk what i wanna do with it. i wanna finish it in a few days. oh and my concert is on the 3rd and 4th of may. we still don't have choreography. GREAT!!! i might as well just end it. M has told me that it's more about the experience. the experience of what? embarrassing myself infront of a bunch of people i don't know???? i fucking hate M sometimes they really get on my fucking nerve.
everyone jsut pisses me off.
i've made a few more personas of myself. i'll write/draw them at some point. also i feel like i'm internetkin but i can barely find any content of it on tumblr or anything :<
ugh i think that's all. UGH.
i was gonna tell my mom i wanted to skip school to work on my assignments fully. but when i walked by inside to tell her i accidentally bumped my little brother with the door. he was fine, but my mom immediately got upset at me because she saw his foot go under the door (he was perfectly fine and only cried a little because my mom was yelling) and then i got mad at her for being so harsh with me, and then she got mad at me and said that i was the one who got upset first (i didn't, when i realized i hit my brother i was calm to make sure he didn't get upset, and AGAIN he was okay). we argued in the car and it fucking sucked.
so i didn't get to tell her i didn't want to go to school, so instead i just fucked off and walked to the library myself since it was like a 15 minute walk. problem is that it was a little rainy and way colder than i thought. i stopped by a cafe for about 2 hours because i was tired of walking (also google maps made me walk the wrong way for 5 minutes so i was even colder and more tired than before). once i got some food and drinks (had to have my parents cashapp me, they still don't know i'm not at school, actually no one has called me even though they should have been notified that i was absent) i filled myself up and went back out to go to the library now that it was open. it was only a 5 minute walk but it became WAY more windy and cold, and there was a slight sprinkle. so when i got to the library i was very cold and tired. i feel so shitty and i STILL have to work even tho i just wanna sleep. i still have the hot chocolate i bought (unfortunately it cooled down significantly) but yeah. that's been my fucking morning. i really wanna blow my brains out.
i'm also trying to write a short story but idk what i wanna do with it. i wanna finish it in a few days. oh and my concert is on the 3rd and 4th of may. we still don't have choreography. GREAT!!! i might as well just end it. M has told me that it's more about the experience. the experience of what? embarrassing myself infront of a bunch of people i don't know???? i fucking hate M sometimes they really get on my fucking nerve.
everyone jsut pisses me off.
i've made a few more personas of myself. i'll write/draw them at some point. also i feel like i'm internetkin but i can barely find any content of it on tumblr or anything :<
ugh i think that's all. UGH.
