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i'm so insanely stressed out because i have no idea what i'm going to do with my life. i want to go to college, but every fucking career i want to pursue doesn't pay enough to be worth it. LITERALLY ALL OF THEM. jobs that pay more i can't do because i'm not smart in math or science HGKJDHJDG and even if you get a degree, it's getting a job that's the hard part. then it's having a job because they'll end up overworking and underpaying you so what's even the point. i know it's juvenile to say, but why does everything have to be SO FUCKING HARD FOR NO REASON. i have a headache, i need to take some medicine.
maybe i just won't go to college at all. it's so much money, putting yourself into debt, when you might not even get anything out of it at all. if i do go to college, i'll try journalism, but yeah everything is just fucking terrible. any job i could feasibly work at won't pay enough, and anything that pays more is such a strain on my body, even if its just fast food. it's like my body tries to kill me for doing a fraction of any fucking work, i hate this so much. i feel so hopeless. so insanely hopeless. i don't know what to do. i've spent like the past hour maybe two just researching jobs, and i just hit wall after wall. i don't know what to do.
my mouse has been acting up, i might have to get a new one.
i changed my name btw.
maybe i just won't go to college at all. it's so much money, putting yourself into debt, when you might not even get anything out of it at all. if i do go to college, i'll try journalism, but yeah everything is just fucking terrible. any job i could feasibly work at won't pay enough, and anything that pays more is such a strain on my body, even if its just fast food. it's like my body tries to kill me for doing a fraction of any fucking work, i hate this so much. i feel so hopeless. so insanely hopeless. i don't know what to do. i've spent like the past hour maybe two just researching jobs, and i just hit wall after wall. i don't know what to do.
my mouse has been acting up, i might have to get a new one.
i changed my name btw.
